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Wednesday, October 12th, 2005
5:01 pm - sometimes i get happy by something amazingly simple, like....
goldfinger is amazing

the end

current mood: drained

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Monday, September 26th, 2005
10:06 pm - mcsara!!!!
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current mood: cranky

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9:47 pm - WELCOME TO THE JUNGLE, BITCHES!!!!
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current mood: amused

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9:37 pm - ganked from metal....
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current mood: cold

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Sunday, September 18th, 2005
6:40 pm - recovering
recovering from an amazing "gathering" today. it doesnt get much better than having a few people at your house that rock, drinkin, having an amazing time playing stupid games and not having too big of a mess to pick up... nah, not too much better... only if i could learn asshole... god dammit i suck! on another note, i am growing my hair back in, i hate this middle stage, makes me want to shave it again... but im not gonna, i miss the faux-hawk. why is it when you actually like someone, all of a sudden everyone else likes you? i hate women...

that is all for today

thank you and goodnight

current mood: mellow

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Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
11:06 am - sadness...
mickey is very very sick, something is really wrong. she cant drink right and when she tries she is so dehydrated that she foams a bit, not rabies like, just enough to know she is very dehydrated, yet she keeps trying. she cant walk well, she seems like she hurt her front leg too... dad is taking her to the vet today... i hope she gets better... thats all i need, to loose her too...

current mood: crushed

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1:14 am
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

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current mood: blah

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Thursday, August 4th, 2005
10:50 pm - tired........
i work too much... no 80;s night tonight... thats sad. oh well, next week... everyone better be there fuckers!! more work tomorrow, 1-11. fun fun. i have been training a new girly the past 2 days, she's a cutie too, too bad shes a fucking baby... 18... god damn young bitches, im such a pedophile. its awesome. anyways, fucking liz, in p-town, invited me but i couldnt go due to work, now i am upset i even got a job, but next weeks paycheck will not upset! other than that not much going on... the ex is prego, im happy for her, she has always wanted a family, and a baby... and it was definitally something i could not have ever given her, that she wanted... along with plenty of other shit. it is seeming to be more and more lately i am not good enough for anything/anyone... but that just be the crazy bipolar swings... but i seriously have felt like nothing lately. i am nothing. i am not good enough for anything/anyone. i am not good looking enough/at all. i do not give enough. or have enough. i am not nice enough. hot enough. someone better always is there, or will be, or i just suck. it doesnt help that i push away at times... i dunno... just down i guess. negative swing... very negative. well on that note, bed soon cuz i got mad shit to do before work....

current mood: drained

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Monday, August 1st, 2005
11:42 am - haha, i have been told this in the past...

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current mood: amused

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Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
12:33 am
"I wanted to be just like you
so perfect, so untouchable
now you want me to be with you
someone who used to have it all
do you remember now?
you acted liked you never noticed me
forget it!
cause the gone has come around
you're not allowed to be a part of me"
Hoobastank

current mood: blah

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Monday, July 25th, 2005
9:16 pm - life
ah, life sucks... great grandma is dead, i have stitches from my 3rd day back to work at advanced. i cut my finger with a box cutter... BAD! oh well, 3 stitches, im fine. birthday was AMAZING! thank you to all my amazing friends... wilbur is back around, i missed him sooooo much. he lives like 2 minutes from me so now i have someone out here, thank god. we will be hanging out much more often! work... well work sucks! almost 70 hours last week... amazing i am still alive... i went from doing nothing for almost 6-7 months to working 70 hour weeks AGAIN... . some things never change... my work ethic. why must i be such a work-a-holic? oh well... will be bringing in quite the check and THAT is what matters... hopefully gonna go to amsterjam to see garbage finally! its about fucking time! well, i will finally have a day off wed. if anyone wants to do anything, holla nigga's. you know how! oh yeah, mri was done, find out soon how it went, hopefully we will find out what is going on with this god forsaken hand of mine... for now, off to do my 8 gazillion pounds o laundry from like forever! oh yeah, and wave this saturday... be there fuckers!

current mood: drained

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12:03 am
donnie
I am Donnie, from "Donnie Darko." I'm
pretty troubled, yes.


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current mood: exhausted

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Sunday, July 17th, 2005
5:43 pm
im toooooooo tired and not with it to write now... birthday celebration update to come in the following day or so though... ah, but for now... rest maybe...

current mood: drained

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Wednesday, July 13th, 2005
3:53 pm - more drugs...
so the surgeon put me on this anti-inflamitory, and i just took it a little while ago... and i feel like dying! i am sweating and then have the chills and am really tired and seeing a bit blurry, this is hot, not at all! supposed to go out to the other side tonight... play ring tones with metal and maybe movie night or kareokee... who knows... who is going to kareokee tonight... let me know... call me or text or IM whatever, let me know or i may not go... now i think i should go lay down... before i fall down!

current mood: groggy

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11:17 am - drugs are bad... mkay!
shower time and drug test time... woo hoo!!!! oh yeah baby!!

current mood: dirty

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1:37 am - if you want to know what i want for my birthday.... mcr is NEEDED!!!
Jetset Life Is Gonna Kill You

Gaze into her killing jar
I'd sometimes stare for hours
She even poked the holes so I can breathe
She bought the last line
I'm just the worst kind
Of guy to argue
With what you might find
And for the last night I lie
Could I lie with you?

Alright, give up, get down
It’s just the hardest part of living
Alright, she wants
It all has to come down this time

Lost in the prescription she's got something else in mind.
Check into the Hotel Bella Muerte.
It gives the weak flight.
It gives the blind sight,
Until the cops come,
Or by the last light.
And for the last night I lie.
Could I lie next to you?

Alright, give up. Get down.
It’s just the hardest part of living.
Alright, she wants. It all has to come down this time.

Alright, give up. Get down.
It’s just the hardest part of living.
Alright, she wants. It all has to come down this time.

Pull the plug.
But I'd like to learn your name.
And holding on,
Well I hope you do the same.
Awww, sugar.
Slip into the tragedy you've spun this chamber dry.

Alright, give up. Get down.
It’s just the hardest part of living.
Alright, she wants. It all has to come down this time.

Alright, give up. Get down.
It’s just the hardest part of living.
Alright, she wants. It all has to come down this time.

Pull the plug.
But I'd like to learn your name.
And holding on,
Well I hope you do the same.
Awww, sugar.

current mood: bouncy

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1:36 am - i am straight for the singer of my chemical romance!
Give 'Em Hell Kid

Oh baby, here comes the sound
I took a train outta New Orleans
And they shot me full of ephedrine
This is how we like to do it in the murder scene
Can we settle up the score

If you were here
I'd never have a fear
So go on live your life
But I miss you more than I did yesterday
You're beautiful

Well I'm a total wreck and almost every day
Like the firing squad or the mess you made
Well don't I look pretty walking down the street
In the best damn tux I own

If you were here
I'd never have a fear
So go on live your life
But I miss you more than I did yesterday
You're so far away
So c'mon, show me how
Cause I mean this more than words can ever say

We are made from the sharpest things you say
We are young and we don't care
Your dreams and your hopeless hair
We never wanted it to be this way
For all our lives
Do you care at all?

If you were here
I'd never have a fear
So go on live your life
But I miss you more than I did yesterday
You're so far away
So c'mon, show me how
Cause I mean this more than words can ever say

current mood: awake

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1:29 am - i LOVE green day!
"Longview"

Sit around and watch the tube,but nothing's on
Change the channels for an hour or two
Twiddle my thumbs just for a bit
I'm sick of all the same old shit
In a house with unlocked doors
And I'm fucking lazy

Bite my lip and close my eyes
Take me away to paradise
I'm so damn bored I'm going blind
And I smell like shit

Peel me off this velcro seat and get me moving
I sure as hell can't do it by myself
I'm feeling like a dog in heat
Barred indoors from the summer street
I locked the door to my own cell
And I lost the key

Bite my lip and close my eyes
Take me away to paradise
I'm so damn bored I'm going blind
And I smell like shit

I got no motivation
Where is my motivation?
No time for the motivation
Smoking my inspiration

Sit around and watch the phone, but no one's calling
Call me pathetic, call me what you will
My mother says to get a job
But she don't like the one she's got
When masturbation's lost its fun
You're fucking breaking

Bite my lip and close my eyes
Take me away to paradise
I'm so damn bored
I'm going blind
And loneliness has to suffice
Bite my lip and close my eyes
I was slipping away to paradise
Some say,"Quit or I'll go blind."
But it's just a myth

current mood: bored

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Tuesday, July 12th, 2005
10:13 pm - Would you like to try an Australian kiss? It is just like a French kiss, but down under.
i know i should be updating and posting and venting... but i just dont feel like it... what can i say... im a lazy bastard and right now i am just letting things eat me up inside! which is not good, but oh well... one of these days i guess. hopefully i start at advanced again next week, and will have cash again to do the fun things in life! oh yeah baby! anyways, 80's night this week, try and be there if possible. everyone wants me to go out on my birthday and i suck and dont really wanna celebrate it cuz birthdays suck, so this is my comprimise! so try and be there if you love me... on that note im out to be lazy and cranky, bitches!

current mood: crappy

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Friday, July 8th, 2005
2:33 pm - Pick Up Lines!
I'd like to kiss you passionately on your lips then move up to your belly button!

If you're going to regret this in the morning, we can sleep until the afternoon!

Can I have your picture so I can show Santa what I want for Christmas?

The word of the day is legs. Let's go back to my crib and spread the word.

I'm going to have sex with you tonight, so... you might as well be there!

Let's go to my place and do the things I'll tell everyone we did anyway!

Your place or mine? Tell you what? I'll flip a coin. Head at my place, tail at yours!

Life is like a dick. When it gets hard, f*ck it.

Love is a sensation, caused by a temptation, to feel penetration. A guy sticks his location in a girl's destination, to increase the population for the next generation, did you get my explanation, or do you need a demonstration?

Would you like to try an Australian kiss? It is just like a French kiss, but down under.

I'll cook you dinner if you cook me breakfast.

Wanna make a porno ... we don't have to tape it!

I've had quite a bit to drink, and you're beginning to look pretty good!

If I told you that you had a great body, would you hold it against me?

You know, you might be asked to leave soon. You're making the other women look really bad.

If I were a fly, I'd be all over you, because you're the shit!

My boys over there bet that I wouldn't be able to start a conversation with the most beautiful girl in the room. Want to buy some drinks with their money?

Love ain't nothin' but sex misspelled.

Could I touch your belly button...from the inside?

If your left leg is Thanksgiving, and your right leg is Christmas, can I visit you between the holidays?

Hey baby, is that a keg in your pants? 'Cause I would like to tap that ass!

Why don't you get down on your knees and smile like a donut!

current mood: amused

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